‘I fell to my knees in sadness and desperation.’
Tammin Sursok reflected on her difficult birth experience as she celebrated her daughter Lennon’s fourth birthday.
The Australian star openly discussed the emotional events leading up to the birth, when she thought she might be having another miscarriage.
Subchorionic bleeding, or bleeding between the membranes enclosing the embryo in the uterus, was what Sursok was actually dealing with.
And Lennon arrived on January 17, 2019, in good health.
“I don’t know whether anyone is aware of this, but I started bleeding 12 weeks into my pregnancy with Lennon. A lot,” Sursok said at the opening of his Wednesday post.
“It was 4 a.m., and there had been numerous miscarriages.
“I sank to my knees in despair and misery, believing that this pregnancy was yet another one that had been lost.
“We arrived at the hospital quickly. I’ll never forget the technician’s expression when they connected me to the monitors.
It was a feeling of relief.
The actress was informed that her kid was “not going anywhere, for now” and had a “really strong heartbeat.”
Sursok added, “I experienced something called a subchorionic bleed and I bled during much of my pregnancy.
The actress claimed she “didn’t truly connect to Lennon because I was too terrified to love something so deeply, something that might not ever come to be” because of prior miscarriages.
Lennon was delivered by c-section on January 17, 2019.
Sursok’s second child with her husband Sean McEwen is named Lennon. Phoenix, their elder child, is nine years old.
I cried when I first saw her face, according to Sursok.
She was present. She was genuine. She was protected,” the mother continued.
“I experienced the most intense feeling of love I have ever experienced.
“All the trauma and pain of the unknown washed away. We were all finally alive.
“Today is her 4th birthday and she has given us nothing but joy and affection and love,” she said.
“She has healed so many parts of me and taught me to trust in divine timing.
“Lennon Bleu, we love you more than you’ll ever know. Thank you for saving us.”
Along with the caption, the actress shared several photos taken across Lennon’s four years.
As a result of the outpouring of sympathy for Sursok on social media, other readers shared their own tragedies.
“I appreciate how open and honest you have always been. One supporter wrote, “I know you’ve gone through some terrible experiences and you’re so strong and inspirational.
“Lennon is a credit to you, and I’m delighted she was able to help with the healing process. Greetings on your adorable little Lennon’s birthday.
“I suffered two subchorionic hemorrhages with my daughter and she turns one next Tuesday,” a different mother remarked.
“I recall crying a lot, praying a lot, and loving every second of being pregnant with her. I used a c-section to birth her as well. I appreciate you sharing this!
“@tamminsursok, I’m very sorry you experienced those miscarriages. I appreciate you being so honest. Discussion is required,” stated a third.
It’s not the first time the star has opened up about her pregnancy with Lennon and the miscarriages she endured.
“Phoenix was such an easy pregnancy, and I got pregnant really, really quick – it was very simple,” Sursok told The Morning Show of her first pregnancy.
“When we decided to have a second child, I got pregnant really fast again – and we lost that baby in the doctor’s office.
“It was pretty far into my pregnancy, so it was quite shocking. When things like that happen, you never think it’s going to happen to you,” she said.
“But they’re so common, and we don’t talk about it.
“And then I had another miscarriage before Lennon, so two back-to-back.
“Women don’t speak about the things that they’re going through.
“We feel so isolated and feel so alone.”
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